Hump day

And boy is it one.

My part time job - well lets just say it SUCKS right now. As this is a public forum, I won't go into details, but I am working far more hours than I had wanted to. Far more than a full time schedule. With no end in sight. Saying no just isn't seeming to work for me. Very discouraging.

That is the biggest reason its a hump day. #2's son went to a new trusty mechanic - and the first trusty mechanic who recommended car euthanasia has been kicked to the curb for ridiculous pricing. This guy fixed the car - for 1/3 of what the first guy said it would cost. That is 500 vs. 1500, folks, a huge difference. HUGE. Sure, ideally I would be getting #2 son the spiffy Crossover of his dreams, but if that were to happen, I would not be able to pay for college for him. I think he gets it. College or car? College or car? Yep, college wins. So this is good news, that the Grand Am is fixed for a reasonable price and appears to have several good years of cruising at warp speeds with the stereo blasting at ear-deafening levels left.

The bad news about #2 son is that mommy dearest (myself) is stressing out. Over the whole college thing. As noted in my first paragraph, I seem to be having a hard time getting time off. Lots of lip service - take the time when you need it - but when push comes to shove, its " better not be today, maybe some other time is better". And #2 and I need to take some serious time and go look at schools. When #1 did the college search, he was fairly focused. Big school, most likely ivy league, business major, with law school aspirations. And thats what he got. #2 son, while just as bright as #1, has some additional factors he is considering. The first of these is whether he wants to swim at college. I am ambivalent over this - I don't want to shell out $160,000 for him to swim, and with many of the big programs, you are an athlete first, and a student second. The second factor is what he wants to be. Could be science, math, OR business. Who knows. Not him. The third factor is that to date we have had a bit of test taking anxiety. The scores to date are not bad. Just not reflective of who he really is. We have one more shot at them next fall - and I think we will be doing a class to prep for them. Self-study isn't doing it. So...I am stressing over when we are going to be able to go look at schools.

Knitting - my pathetic socks that rock - I have completed the gusset shaping on sock #2 and am coming in on the home stretch. I found my felted clogs that I started mid winter. I got one complete. Of course because these are for me, there is no hurry. I am sure I will complete OTHER felted clogs before mine are done. I also have my block a month afghan going on.

I met up with a great knitting group last night in Cuyahoga Falls - hope to be able to join them more!

And finally - weight watchers. I haven't addressed this little issue - but since I have been in this current job, since August 2003, I have put on 25 lbs. That is almost 2 lbs a month. I have gone from a size 6 to a size 10, the "girls" are gee-normous and not the good kind, my stamina is down to zero, and I don't feel good about myself. My cholesterol is through the roof and I am on meds for it. My blood pressure is most likely going to require meds too. 5 years ago I would have said my kids were proud of how I looked - not so much now. I joined WW about a month ago. Because of the aforementioned job issues, have not been able to incorporate exercise back into my life on a consistent basis. My all time high is 149. On a small frame. On a girl who 10 years ago weighed 110. (ok so maybe that was a LITTLE thin but still). My goal is 120. Weigh in tomorrow. So far its been maybe a pound a week, but I am hopeful that I can get the exercise back in there. Getting home at 8 pm though hasn't been helpful in this regard!

Thanks for listening to me vent. Better in a blog than at my co-workers!